4/12/15

I cant fucking forget what the fuck happened to us, we fucked up our relationships. Yes, maybe sometimes, you really cant come out, but why the fuck does it always have to happen on the days that we planned to go out, cant it be the days you go out with your friends? Yes you may say that you tried and didn't want this to happen, but after so many times, i just wouldn't fucking accept the fact that its so coincident to have it clash with the days only we play planned. Somehow, whenever you chose to go out with your friends nothing seems to spoil it for fuck sake, please don't fucking tell me that you didn't want this to happen. Oh please if you didn't want this to happen, then why the fuck this happens to me while you can go out with your friends the following few days while you told that you weren't free at all. after so much, i'm beginning to let go, drinking or smoking isn't going to help, maybe letting you go is the best way to help myself feel better once and for all. When the time comes, you can go out with your friends for as much as you fucking want and nobody gonna give a fucking shit about anyone of you, and i can have a free life, not having any commitment to anyone or anything, although being with you, its probably no difference from having no commitment just that i have to fucking cancel my work plans when we planned to go out, only to have you fucking spoil it, i'm fucking sick of this shit, to be honestly, i'm fucking sick of whats happening, soon i'm going to tell you, its over i let go now.